Volleyball

used to be really very interested in playing volleyball back in my secondary school days. I could still remember how I would stay back after school with some of my friends to practice volleyball at the carpark just outside the study area. I wanted so badly to join the volleyball team when I got into secondary school, but somehow, my school didnt offer that as a CCA.. we have no girl's team.

Volleyball in NYJC is a NO NO cos the team is just made up of all the good good players from everywhere. people appealed into NYJC through volleyball and there was no recreational team. and there in NYJC, I continued my 5th and 6th year of netball..

now I'm in NTU.. all sports are made up of the IVP players and I doubt there is any recreational team ba. so if you are not good, you dont even get the chance to join them at trainings! I played my first game of volleyball when I came into NTU Hall 14. the first game in Year 1, I could still remember clearly was with Hall 5. I got to play cos we were short of players as Xiaoying was overseas. that was my life's first proper volleyball match. the subsequent games, I was just watching at the side lines. not knowing how the game goes, what the rules are and when you have no trainings for the proper game before, one will really feel lost while on court. everyone knew what to do except for you. that was how I felt last year.. I told myself, I'm not going to play volleyball competitively again. I managed to keep away from volleyball this IH for the first 2 games. but seeing that they were short of players, 心软的我，decided to go for it again.. went for the trainings on Monday and Wednesday which left my both hands covered with bruises. I'm not complaining abt all the bruises that I got, but somehow things just dont feel right. I actually enjoyed training! but today's game left me feeling TERRIBLE terrible.. I'm not at all ready to play and I think I just screwed up the whole game.. I feel HORRIBLE horrible! hai~ am I gonna swear that I won't touch competitive volleyball again? am I suppose to stick with Netball for the rest of my life?

ARGH!!! I feel totally screwed up! DAMN!