what's wrong?

this post is not gonna sound too good, but I just wanna pour out my feelings lahz.. no hard feelings to anyone here.. so just read and take it as nothing have been mentioned here ba.. =)

always ends up an unhappy thing when I meet my friends initially.. as in when I just reach the destination and see them there.. Hmm.. somehow I always dont feel in place when we first meet up.. sometimes it really makes me wonder why is it like that.. or maybe I'm to sensitive ba..

说好 I go meet them at Farrer Park, but in the end when I reach there, they were not around.. they left for a drink at Mustafa.. rushed out to meet them earlier, in the end, I had to stand alone in the station for awhile.. but luckily they came to find me lahz.. I actually thought that I will be waiting there alone till like 1830? hmm.. this is not the first time le.. and I feel kinda sianz and maybe alittle left out ba.. what's wrong with me?

somehow, I feel that the people in this world are losing their sense of feeling awareness if that's what it is called.. no longer having the selflessness that our older generations used to have.. it's all ME, MYSELF and I, and ME for MYSELF.. what's going on? WEIRD temperature, WEIRD people with WEIRD behaviour.. what's next?

maybe I'm expecting too much from my friends just like how Tracy did in Secondary School.. I remember us telling her not to expect as much as she has put in in return.. haa! now it's back to me huh.. RETRIBUTION? think I've gotta start to 积 some 德 le.. be nicer to people and strangers.. do charities and donate money.. yeaah.. I really think I have to start be nicer le lahz..