was actually complaining to myself that I have no present, no celebration from you girls this year.. kinda sad.. so the thing just stop at me or is it.. bcos it's Wei Ling therefore it stopped? and then it will continue again on the next birthday? hahaha.. already grown tired of all this faking here and there attitude le.. only can complain to myself.. I dont ask for much from this group anyway.. somehow.. the passion just died and the attitude just changes.. thinking back during the days in Deyi.. we actually sat down and talk, and even ended up crying bcos we are going to drift apart after leaving Deyi and not be as close anymore.. really feel stupid and foolish.. just feel like laughing at myself.. dont expect much anymore.. sometimes, I just feel so 辛苦when I'm out with the gang.. I cant be myself.. 很不自在。。but what to do? I dun wanna make some of my friends unhappy, more of upset ba.. so have to 忍着.. we have argued and quarrelled many times abt this issue le.. dont wanna bring it up again.. so let it be okay? I'm not like you all.. will call up each other to complain about things or just to chit-chat.. I'm just someone who doesnt do that.. I wanna do that too, but I really dont have the time to call up a friend and chat.. and also, I dont have the habit.. feels abit 酸酸的 when I see you all doing all those and actually still in contact with each other.. knowing what is up next and all that kind of thing.. I guess I'm just out of the league ba.. never mind.. I shall remain like that and see what's up next for me ba..
anyway.. thanx Juan and Sherri for the Eye-liner and Mascara.. I dont know when I will get to use it but I'll try lahz.. hahaha..
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