a little scared.. but dunno what to do.. making someone tired and knowing that I've gotta do something to make this situation better is really a tough one..
now I'm not just a little scared I guess.. cos this is not the first time le.. and it really feels horrifying and maybe panicky to be at a lost for words and actions.. I know I need to do something but I just dunno where to start from.. if only I could turn back the time and not make the same mistake..
the same mistakes over and over again.. what the hell am I thinking/doing.. it's either my brain is not working or I am really dumb.. sometimes I feel like my nephew.. " I dunno why, but I really cant control what I'm doing.." now I know how he feels when he is doing the wrong thing without him realising and without having the ability to stop what he is doing..
I gotta be a better me.. really a better one..
Monday, January 12, 2009
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
school started - 2009
first day of school was one without too much surprises or whatsoever.. I just went for MP3001 lecture and half of the lecture for Living with Mathematics.. my Lab group wasn't scheduled for lab so no lab for me today! yeay~
Living with Mathematics seems fine without the project that requires you to work with people that are chosen for you. Nahz.. I rather not have any electives than to work with a group of people that are total strangers to me when I actually have a few friends in the same class as me!I guess life just sucks as it is.. too bad for me then! Gonna appeal for BS803 tomorrow morning and I hope that NTU will be so kind and nice to grant me and Sera our wish to clear this elective this sem.. if not, we will only be clearing 15 AUs which is really too little and a total waste of our time in school this sem!!!
Stressed to study hard and do well this sem as well.. friends who studied last sem did very well and I have to too.. if not I will be like lagging behinddddd...... I need to do wellllll...... argh~ *stressed*
Jia you ba, Ling
Living with Mathematics seems fine without the project that requires you to work with people that are chosen for you. Nahz.. I rather not have any electives than to work with a group of people that are total strangers to me when I actually have a few friends in the same class as me!I guess life just sucks as it is.. too bad for me then! Gonna appeal for BS803 tomorrow morning and I hope that NTU will be so kind and nice to grant me and Sera our wish to clear this elective this sem.. if not, we will only be clearing 15 AUs which is really too little and a total waste of our time in school this sem!!!
Stressed to study hard and do well this sem as well.. friends who studied last sem did very well and I have to too.. if not I will be like lagging behinddddd...... I need to do wellllll...... argh~ *stressed*
Jia you ba, Ling
Thursday, January 1, 2009
010109 - A new year ahead
31.12.08 - The last day of 2008
track training at Hougang stadium in the morning.. and I really had to crawl out from under my blanket.. Who has training on the eve of new year day??? That's me! I guess you must be wondering why the hell am I in training for track rite? I wonder too... Never in my life have I ever trained for running and yesterday was my first..
3 rounds, outest most land in the stadium... that was still alright cos I was running so slowly..
then it was warm up doing all the funny and weird drills.. stuff that I do feeling retarded! Still suffering from the aches and pains from the training and match from Hockey previously, I really felt like my legs are going to give way! practised passing batons and I had a hard time catching up with my 4th runner to pass her the baton.. OH NO!!! I cant run fast but why am I in Track??? ARGH~
The last day of 2008 and the first day 0f 2009 were spent with my Dear.. watched the fireworks together just behind Gluttons Bay.. the fireworks was GREAT.. spectacular spectacular!!! (the best in the last 3 years) Didnt do much on New Year's eve and day but it was quality time spent with Dear..
Not much expectations for the coming year just hope that everything will go smoothly for me and the people around me.. studies, health, wealth, happiness and friendship... Happy New Year to all!!!
track training at Hougang stadium in the morning.. and I really had to crawl out from under my blanket.. Who has training on the eve of new year day??? That's me! I guess you must be wondering why the hell am I in training for track rite? I wonder too... Never in my life have I ever trained for running and yesterday was my first..
3 rounds, outest most land in the stadium... that was still alright cos I was running so slowly..
then it was warm up doing all the funny and weird drills.. stuff that I do feeling retarded! Still suffering from the aches and pains from the training and match from Hockey previously, I really felt like my legs are going to give way! practised passing batons and I had a hard time catching up with my 4th runner to pass her the baton.. OH NO!!! I cant run fast but why am I in Track??? ARGH~
The last day of 2008 and the first day 0f 2009 were spent with my Dear.. watched the fireworks together just behind Gluttons Bay.. the fireworks was GREAT.. spectacular spectacular!!! (the best in the last 3 years) Didnt do much on New Year's eve and day but it was quality time spent with Dear..
Not much expectations for the coming year just hope that everything will go smoothly for me and the people around me.. studies, health, wealth, happiness and friendship... Happy New Year to all!!!
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